Well THAT was interesting. my first "preformance" at a coffee shop and my sister's 18th birthday party all in one night! the coffee shop was amazing fun. it was PACKED with tons of friends adn my family. i'll be honest i screwed up half the songs, but i didint even care i jsut started laughing and enjoying myself even more. it's honestly the best feeling ever. i couldnt wipe the smile off my face for most the night. jaz's party was great at the beginning. i got to talk to alot of poeple i knew and i was already so hipper that it made it amazing. i didint drink much cuase i didnt feel like it. i had a drink with my sister for her birthday and 2 with maya. spaced out over 2 hours. i was sitting with maya and them for that long though and i hadnt thought to check on their progress. not to complain or anything but the night kinda got shit after that. i was really afraid for my friends who had drank to much. they were really pale. its the fucking scariest thing in the world to not know how to tell if your firend is ok or not, to not know how much they drank adn to have them begging you to call an ambulance. i wasnt much of a help really. i felt like shit cause i couldnt stay calm like sydney, emi and vicki who were an amazing help. i mean they turned out to be fine but at teh time it was really fucking scary to see. my parents got home to them slumped over on my bed. my mom was amazing about it. i guess she was glad that i hadnt been the same this time. but still i was really empressed. neither her or my dad got mad that ngiht or even the next day. they were jsut completly cool about it. im never drinking in my hosue again out of respect for them. right no wim really fucking tierd ubt i cant sleep. plus my bedroom is full of vomit and nasty things so i dont relaly wanna go in there. i stayed up till round 4 yesterday checking on things. i'm really tierd of being around alcohol at the moment. i need a long break. shit i have crap load of homework tomorow!!